without love

why don't we try (for me!) living in reality? because living in dreams is like living a life of expectations,its like loving someone who used to love you, painful isn't? maybe i'll try loving no one, loving myself, try having a relationship without intimacy or affection, i would like to know how it feels hurting someone without knowing it..mean! i'm starting to hate love.its like my mind knows what is right but how come my heart is being retarded or so? ask me how many times my heart was broken and i will tell you to look up in the sky and count the stars. i think i regretted to love the guy i used to love and loving that guy who didn't love me..he was not worth it.. i think? i need to forget all about him. should i smile because he's my friend or because that's all he is? how can i be truly happy when my own happiness has left me?

letting go. ^^

A question I asked myself after all these years of expecting, pain and misery...”WORTH IT BA?" I know the answer from the start I just didn't bother facing it "NEVER WAS IT WORTH IT, NEVER WAS, NEVER HIM." I fought for what I believe in never realizing that I was living in dreams. I have to face reality that there is no fairytale-prince-charming to come and rescue the princess, that the PRINCE will just simply make the poor PRINCESS fall for him but the PRINCESS will do all the fighting.